May 06, 2015

Radical Self Love

     I have a confession to make: I don't always love my body. In fact, I've devised some sneaky ways around ever having to think about it. I don't own a scale. When I go to the doctor, I step on backward and tell them I don't want to know. I can't know. To know is to fall down a horrible shame spiral of body hatred.
     I'm fed up. I'm sick of living my life in opposition to my body. I'm tired of feeling negative toward this body that has treated me well. It's lived and it's loved and it's brought me from there to here. I'm tired of feeling anything but awe at the things my body can do.
     The personal is political and our bodies are both intensely personal and politicized, meaning that the conscious decision to love ourselves is an inherently radical act. I want to make the commitment to just love myself. Even when it's hard, even when it's not fun.
     In that vein, I'm looking for stories, photos, etc. from people about their struggles, successes, whatever. I want a variety of voices. Tell me about your struggles and triumphs. I'll talk to people working in the fitness industry, trans* people, menopausal women, young people, old people, fat people, thin people, and on and on and on. In exchange for your stories, I commit to allowing myself to be vulnerable and honest about myself and my relationship with my body. Together, we can open a frank dialogue about bodies, and learn how we can love ourselves and treat ourselves kindly, even when it's difficult.

2 comments:

  1. Love this idea! I will have to think of something to contribute, but here's something to start off with: In our high school dance class (where we met, aww!), I never performed in any recitals because I did not want to stick out as the fat girl on stage. Also (to be totally fair) I was usually the last to get the choreography, but if I hadn't been thinking about how gross I looked I probably would have concentrated better on that too. I would not have taken the class AT ALL if I was not secretly inspired by Aimee Sadler who was already in Dance 2. I'm gonna see if I can find Aimee on FB & tell her that, because she never knew her bravery gave me courage.

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  2. *note: I just realized you may not remember Aimee as she was in my grade- she was the tallest, biggest, and only black girl in her dance class, but she excelled. I believe she DID perform in the recitals, but she also had a lot more talent than I did.

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