January 21, 2015

I'm Afraid

I'm afraid to walk alone at night.
I'm afraid of poverty.
I'm afraid to be a parent.
I'm afraid I'll regret not becoming one.
I'm afraid to be vulnerable.
I'm afraid to be emotional.
I'm afraid of keeping my feelings inside.
I'm afraid you'll stop loving me.
I'm afraid I love you too much.
I'm afraid of being inauthentic.
I'm afraid that makes me an asshole.
I'm afraid I'll never do anything great.
I'm afraid of losing the people I love.
I'm afraid of being judged in the court of public opinion.
I'm afraid I'll make the wrong choices.
I'm afraid I'm bad at my job.
I'm afraid that I'm uninteresting.
I'm afraid that I'm a bad host.
I'm afraid they'll know I'm only pretending.
I'm afraid.

2 comments:

  1. We're all afraid, the key is not letting it cripple you. Relinquishing control of pieces of ourselves is the hardest thing we can do. In my experience, happiness is only a small leap and a deep breath away. Sometimes it works, sometimes is doesn't, but those experiences make us into the people we are and will become. You are amazing and unique and there will never be anyone else like you. Have faith in yourself and tell the fear to kiss your ass on the way out. <3

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  2. I definitely agree. The fear doesn't usually hold me back, but I've been feeling it more than usual recently. Big life changes tend to have that effect on me. :)

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